watching the world wake up

i'm blogging from work.. a first for me.
i work in a coffee shop, for those of you who don't know. we open at 5:30, which means i get here at 5:00 am. and on days like today, when i open after closing the night before and leaving at 11 p.m., it can get a little hard to be interested in coffee. lol. it's kinda neat though, to watch the world wake up through my store windows.
first it's dark, the torches are on outside with their solitary flames.. a car drives by now and again... even the cars look sleepy.then after a little while, a little pink starts to touch the sky, making it a dull pastel purple-grey. more cars start coming out, things seem to be moving a little faster... it's like the town's wakeup stretch. the pink starts to brighten and outline the clouds, the sky turns a brighter blue, and before you know it it's full morning. makes me want to yawn

i remind me of You've Got Mail.. lol.

aaand i gotta go turn off the torches now. g'day :)

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p.s.
this is my 50th post! party!

*so excited* ^_^

alright guys. i'm rediculously excited. for many reasons... i'll tell you one or two ;)

so for my mom's birthday/Christmas (this merits TWO holidays, cuz it cost a pretty penny.. and it's just that awesome) i got her tickets to see Michael W. Smith's Christmas concert, accompanied by the Dallas Symphony Orchestra at the Meyerson. best composer, best Christmas music, best concert hall... can't really beat that, now can you? and our seats have a great view of the piano, which he plays on his best songs. i'm soooooooo excited, she's gonna love it!!! and if you tell her, i'll cut your tongue out >:(

in other news, i saw Twilight. went to the midnight release, in fact. coulda been soooooo much better. all of the actors did a good job except for kristen stewart and robert pattinson... the two leads. seriously. hers was the worst acting job i've seen thus far.. in my lifetime. well, in a movie anyway. no wonder stephanie meyers doesnt want to be associated with the film. the screenplay and script were mediocre at best. the videography was awful. Fandango's review said "you can't keep your eyes off of kristen stewart and robert pattinson"... what it doesnt say is that that's because half of the movie is close-ups. the other half is mostly circle pans and random nature shots. i know, you're thinking "what the gay? why would they do that" ...that's what i thought too.
however, despite almost total lack of character development in the script, the other actors did really well. Charlie swan gets the best-played character award. i think they did pretty well with jacob black too. and the CULLENS... ^_^... carlisle is beautiful. and jasper is rather exquisite too. ^_^
overall, here's my advice for the producers of Twilight: fire the videographer. blacklist the casting director. you're pretty much stuck with stewart and pattinson, so invest in some acting classes. and catherine hardwicke is an idiot of a director. unless you have a contract, boot her too. and a new makeup artist might be called for too. last but not least, read the books. and make the rest of your staff and cast read them too.

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its that time of year
when the world falls in love, every song you hear
seems to say
Merry Christmas!
may your new year's dreams come true
and this song of mine
in three-quarter time
wishes you and yours the same thing too

i'm so excited ^_^

i love this time of year when the world falls in love

(no, i'm not skipping thanksgiving, i'm just doing things ever so slightly out of order this year :p but i promise promise to do a thanksgiving post.)

p.s. i turned 18. i'm legally an adult now. yay me.

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feel so small

so today in my government class we had a guest speaker, a "child survivor" from the holocaust. she was a toddler in occupied france in the 1940's... her entire village basically hid her family from the nazis, a sort of silent resistance

man.
the whole story is amazing, all of the little things along the way that saved her and her family's lives. every time i hear or learn about the holocaust, especially meeting an actual survivor of the holocaust (i'd never met one before), i feel so small. like, this was such a huge monstrosity basically, it's overwhelming to think about, and i cant even fully grasp it. i can't imagine so much hatred and cruelty. it's so far away, so very removed from myself... it makes my life look like 100% sunshine and rainbows. and in comparison, it is. people like those villagers that saved this family's lives.. they were faced in life with a crossroads, and they didnt have a choice but to make a difference one way or another. they could preserve themselves and cooperate with the nazis and hope for favor, or they could do the right thing and save a life, and countless other lives by posterity, and pray for grace. how many of us sheltered americans have nothing to face but the decision of what we want? granted, if you're serving God and you're in His will then you know that you have a purpose, and that's the only thing that keeps me from feeling like my life as it is is pointless.
anyway... i wont go on and on about it.. it never fails to get me thinking, though. the real heroes of the holocaust, who saved lives and risked their own resisting the nazis, they didnt think they were heroes. they didnt think they were being valiant or praiseworthy.. they did what was right. they did what any decent person should. and they were scared just like anybody else...
i hope that if the opportunity were ever to present itself in my life, i could so easily set myself aside and do the right and decent thing. in fact, i hope i do every day of my life.

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what to post, what to say?

*sigh*

so i'm sitting in my english class waiting for the rest of the class to finish the assignment that we had as HOMEWORK. i'd already done it, of course, being that having it done when you arrive in class is sortof the nature of homework... but my prof is a bit of a pushover so why bother? anyway, all of this to explain why i'm sitting here wasting time at school.. during class. eh. whatever

hahaha, funny moment. so i was in my physics lab yesterday, and we were talking about bouyancy, specifically in relation to density. so my prof was talking about the Great Salt Lake, the Dead Sea, etc. and he says, "if you've ever been to the Great Salt Lake, when you get out, it feels like you're just coated in salt.."

and this guy in my lab interjects, "..you ARE coated in salt"

lol

good times good times. i felt a little disrespectful for laughing, but seriously. it was funny.

so i really dont know what to write blog about... i've got plenty on my mind, sure, but how much of it can i formulate into sentences? and how much would i actually want to put into a hard copy? idk...
i had a dream last night that my party was a total disaster. it was rather unpleasant. i mena, i know it wont really be, but still. i was a little unhappy when i woke up. which is of course why i went back to sleep :p

i feel so impatient lately. like imagine you live in rockwall (suburb of dallas) and you're expecting a package to be delivered by ups. and you sorta thought it'd be there already, but i mean you didnt want to get bent out of shape over it or anything so you just kep on waiting, cuz you know there might have been benign complications. so after a little while you call UPS to see where it is (you know they do that tracking thing) and they say that it's in dallas.. good, right? so it should be here pretty soon, no? ok... keep imagining, now it's a week later, and the package was 30 miles away a week ago, but it's not there yet. that's about how i feel. yeah. about.

my gov prof made an allusion to A Beautiful Mind in class today, and now i really want to watch that movie. maybe i'll rent it tonight. [hrmm]
and, speaking of movies and such, my sister got the first two seasons of House on dvd. yeah. so we can all guess how Bekah's free time will be spent in the immediate future, right? hehehe

rawr. i could go on spewing about trivial things for awhile i suppose, but this post is substantial enough and i don't feel like being pointless. so yeah. i'm gonna go call somebody special :)

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